the need to create
why is not the question, but
what is the answer
lost without any
answers. questioning without
knowing where I am
adrift, unmoored, no captain
at the helm but me
The desire to create is not always easy to satisfy. Often I have an idea, but when I try to make it a reality, it often doesn’t come out right. Sometimes it ends up different from what was in my head, but still works, and is often better. But all too often, what I am trying to do simply falls apart. Words don’t come together, lines don’t work together.
But lately, something different has been happening. The desire to create is there. But I don’t know what it is I should be trying to create. Should I write? Draw? Come up with something funny and silly and interesting and post it somewhere on internet? Make a video? Write a super interesting blog post?
I want to create, but I don’t know what. Often lately, I’ve come up empty even when thinking about commenting on other blogs, let alone post to my blog or anything else.
But apparently, I can still write poetry. And a blog post. This urge to create is not so much a fire burning inside me driving me before it, as it is a tide rising, pushing me to act, but the direction I go in is up to me.